There are times when I feel like a prophet, in word and action, but sometimes I feel there is nothing to do in a given situation than simply rolling with it. There are times when an issue comes up, and I simply don’t know what the answer is, don’t know where the best stance for social justice is, and know internally that this is not a place where I am called to move. Ya know, sometimes this place is very good, a place where others must step in, where God calls me to be nothing more than an observer, or wait, more than an observer, a person who can pray and observe and trust that God is there.
It is places of the uncertain that I personally feel most in the wilderness, the desert of my soul. When I see places of hurt or pain that I can’t change, I can’t understand and darn it, I wish I could fix. I once heard someone say, “how would you react if you truly understood a person’s motive, what would change?”
It seems that one of the wonders of God is recognizing that we are all going to fall short of fully comprehending everything, that to let go of absolute reason, unending knowing, and full depth of understanding, is to fall into the graceful pillow of “KNOWING” there is something greater than ourselves. The greatest knowing is to acknowledge that we can never really know… it gives us freedom to just roll with life at times when the going gets tough, when to understand cruelty and craziness is not for us to know. It allows God to be in a supreme place and for us to have a place to rest our brains and emotions.
Where do you need to let go, and let God?